Suicidal thoughts, thinking of ways that I could just disappear. I have no interest in anything now. Life doesn't matter too me anymore, its just a long movie. I feel like no one would care if I wasn't ok anymore. I don't wanna waste time talking about my problems. I feel guilty for everything I've done and I'm sorry. You guys can take all that matters too me now. I won't have them anymore. I feel like my parents don't really care about my feelings anymore, because on my trip I tell them I wanna stay home, but they never listen or seem too care what I wanna do, so, I should just die.